Wait. That's not true...Even cute faces and sweet smiles aren't enough sometimes. Emotions wane; they come...and then they go. You get sick; they disobey; you get frustrated; they make you cry. Warm fuzzies are nowhere to be found.
This is the reason I won't give up:
"O my people, hear my teaching; listen to the words of my mouth. I will open my mouth in parables, I will utter hidden things, things from of old- what we have heard and known, what our fathers have told us. We will not hide them from their children; we will tell the next generation the praiseworthy deeds of the LORD, his power, and the wonders he has done. He decreed statutes for Jacob and established the law in Israel, which he commanded our forefathers to teach their children, so the next generation would know them, even the children yet to be born, and they in turn would tell their children. Then they would put their trust in God and would not forget his deeds but would keep his commands. " Psalm 78
Even when the benefits of what I am doing can't be seen, I can think about the hard questions and come up with an answer that satisfies me. I can look at reality and not be afraid. I don't have to avoid thinking about the meaning of my life; I don't have to distract myself from the redundancy of motherhood. On a good day, looking at my children may sometimes give me the answer; on a hard day, talking to my husband may also. But today, that doesn't help. All I have is God's Word. And the history of His doings to calm my faint heart. I can trust what He says, and I can persevere. I can get through today and still honor Him; and tomorrow (well...maybe the next day) I will enjoy the bounty of a good life.
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